The morning after the night before!

In 3 months our brains have been overwhelmed by information, change management panic and an emotional rollercoaster now coined the corona coaster!  8 weeks of 24-7 mummy tags takes its toll, my mind awash 

Weeks into a pandemic and generally survival mode has been quite efficient. Balancing home schooling, an increased workload and a collapse in social & tactile experiences has, on the whole, been achievable. 

I didn’t set my expectations high, so this has helped. The children do the bare minimum schoolwork and then self manage their amusement in the afternoon, away from my dining room office. I refused to make packed lunches the whole time they were in school, but now merrily create them each day to guarantee grab and go food is available so I can continue to work!  My attitude to levels of schooling has definitely rubbed off as they  are living lockdown life with gay abandon, and in my opinion so they should. Although the pandemic is a marathon and not a sprint, it will become a snapshot in history and a small moment in our lives.

At first zoom saved my life! Dramatic I know, but I have always thrived on human connection, doused myself in oxytocin by hugging as much as possible and loved looking into people’s eyes to reach their souls. So zoom rooms have become the alternative connection, in which I initially thrived. However as the weeks move along, they began to leave a little hollowness. I am hedonistic, give me fun, fizz and laughter and I want more & more. So when the 40 minutes of zoom comes to an abrupt end, the warmth of the party mode goes straight away; a weird feeling. 

In addition, the whole of my work-life became online screen time; recording more videos, joining videos and ‘live’ this and ‘live’ that on social media platforms. Your brain is overloaded with data and noise; exhausted!

So several weeks into lockdown on the corona coaster of emotion I reached the pinnacle of the ride and dropped at high speed into a vat of overwhelm, anxiety and emotion. The drop came without warning.  From nowhere I lost control and couldn’t put the breaks on, or get into reverse.  Any therapist will tell me there is actually no such thing as control anyway, but I think that humans function in a belief system of control to manage their every day, despite the fact that any of that can be altered by anything at any time!

The day arrived of loss of all reasoning, emotional control and the ability to find a positive place. Fortunately for me this lasted 36 hours. I have so much respect for those that have to battle with the extremes of their mental health day in day out. A glimpse was exhausting!  

I can attribute the relative flash in the pan of a mini breakdown to the people I am very fortunate to have in my life.  My husband just listened, let every tear roll, every word float, whether it made sense or not and tried to help me rationalise. Aware that he had had hours of this, I slipped off to bed and let him sleep and leave for work whilst I quietly continued to sob.  I couldn’t get out of bed that morning, so unlike me, I felt like I wanted to give up, I didn’t understand this overwhelm and I had not been able to reach the happy places that I normally seek warmth in.

I always hope that people have ‘their people’. You know the people that you trust implicitly, can show the rawest of emotion to and be laughing with 5 minutes later! I am truly blessed that I have THAT friend amongst ‘my people’. The friend that immediately recognises something is wrong, who then (additionally & importantly) stops to listen and I mean really listen. On this occasion, I bared my soul, my inner most thoughts, my feelings, with so much honesty that if she was in any doubt about how much love and trust I had in our friendship, there would be no more doubt! Such friends are rare and very precious, look after them!

So 36 hours later I awoke and it felt like the morning after the night before.  I’d been intoxicated in emotion and loss of control, shown vulnerabilities and exposed my inner most thoughts. 

I question whether this is actually freedom; there are theories that exposure of vulnerability leads to more experiences of joy contributing to the whole self existence.

Or have I relinquished my strength and control of self? 

I’d got that awkwardness & shame (like when you’ve drunk too much and said too much!). Standing back within 48 hours, I recognised that with that comes the restoration of mind & emotion, ability to move on, a return to positivity, the ability to feel like I’m taking back some control.  More than anything, appreciation and gratitude for the special people in my life, for the life I have been given and the life I am yet to lead.

  It is how I feel this morning, I’ve got that awkwardness & shame (like when you’ve drunk too much and said too much!), although with that comes the restoration, moving on, return to positivity, taking back some control. 

True to the default me, I comforted myself with 2 tea cakes and some cheese & crackers, which well and truly negated the calorie deficit built with the 3 exercise classes completed  just before! The food demons are never far away, feeding emotion & fuelling cortisol with more sugar.  The difference is that as My Time for Change has become my life style, I know having awoken that morning that it would be natural for me to go back to the foods that look after my health, protect my gut, my mind and essentially my wellbeing.   I could dwell, I could self sabotage and delve back into the past of repeated cycles of eat, beat and repeat! Hating myself for eating too much, but eating too much to mask the emotion.  But no, not now! Additionally My Time For Change feeds you with motivation, inspiration and a community that ensures you never feel isolated; a health hub that keeps your wellbeing topped up.

In conclusion, don’t be afraid of feeling vulnerable.  Be kind to yourself, we are experiencing so many intangible things, on top of the anxieties & emotional shifts we were feeling prior to the pandemic! Allow emotion to flow, reach out and find your community.  My Time for Change can offer that place of wellbeing, of positivity, community and health advice.  It has proven in the last few weeks to be the lifeline for many women, including me!

My Time for Change programmes are available every month. Join the community of like minded women and be motivated & inspired every day to help you work on the best version of you and your wellbeing.

Contact Emma; [email protected] or 07971 596529

Time for Change

The Styling chapter

My Time for Change has been a health and wellbeing  journey that has opened so many doors and opportunities; has brought friendship, oodles of happiness, mental wellness, health, strength, fitness and of course, for me, masses of weight loss.  And the journey is not over yet, I suppose nor will it ever be, but a styling chapter has arisen. An exciting collaboration with the fabulous clothing company Olivia May.

Olivia May showcases beautiful clothes from International designers from their Cheshire showroom and an even greater product lines in their designer collections online.  Now I may sound like I know what I am talking about, however this woman is so far removed from this scenario that when I got the opportunity to be styled by the team at Olivia May, I was full of trepidation!  I have always worn clothes that covered me, that I could fit into and were black to help with the illusion of being smaller!   There was never any consideration about materials, textures nor colours!

As always, pathways tend to unravel in front of you.  I met Ann and Katie of Olivia May at a networking event by Sue France of Creative Connecting in Cheshire.  Ann and I chatted for a while and discovered we both had a passion for helping to empower women, acknowledging that wellbeing is enhanced by nutrition, fitness and from Ann’s perspective, clothing.  I had obviously experienced the uplifting benefits of nutrition and fitness through My Time for Change by Emma Wilson Fitness, but had yet to participate in the rewarding event of being stylised professionally.

I had been lucky enough to be supported by Emma on a shopping trip in May 2019, who had encouraged me to try clothes and enjoy clothes I never thought I could wear.  Thank goodness for Emma, as I’m not entirely sure what my transition wardrobe would have been!  You see I find clothes shopping overwhelming – Where do I start?  How do I know what will suit me?  What items go together?  I’d never really had to think about it before because I was never styling myself, I was just covering myself!  Latterly, I have found a comfort zone in tight black jeans and grey jumpers, although I still get twitchy when it comes to ‘dressing up’ clothes and (particularly in my new role) business attire!

So when Ann and I discussed the merits of a collaboration between Olivia May and My Time for Change we knew we could achieve a holistic review of a woman’s journey.   Consideration of the overall wellbeing of a woman and their challenges through their thirties, the peri menopause, the menopause and beyond.  Women in the workplace, women with social commitments, women with families and women who just want to feel alive, are all balancing life, their responsibilities and their own wellness.  Everyone deserves to feel good, to be respected and to reach their goals, they should not be inhibited by anything.  So when you have found goodness from within through eating well, education, motivation, exercising regularly and a supportive community it is only natural that the next chapter would be to look at the outer packaging of yourself.  This can then support your personality, your aspirations and your place in the world.

I was ready for this!  In my new role as Emma’s business partner in My Time for Change, I felt I needed some appropriate clothing to represent us in more formal meetings, to gain respect, to be me with less informality, if you like!  I had attended a meeting a few weeks ago which I had described as ‘feeling like I was dressed as a nun’.  Not being disrespectful to that chosen vocation, but I was so far removed from clothing that felt natural to me that I felt like I had also had a personality change!

So the process for the first styling day began; I was asked what shoe size and dress size are you? Well shoe size has always been my go to comfort spot, after all buying shoes was always safe, you can strut in and go to a size 6 and not have to worry too much about whether you’d eaten too much chocolate for weeks prior to the shop!! But the dress size question still shocks me! I want to say extra large, extra extra large, 18, 20, 22. I actually had to go to my wardrobe and check what size dress I had bought and worn recently to confirm what size I am! Internally I am still convinced that I’ll struggle to get in stuff, I really haven’t shaken that off!

Emma & I arrived at Olivia May’s Cheshire showroom and were greeted with warmth by their styling experts.  They certainly sensed my resistance to change, fear of the unknown and uncertainty about my own style.  They gently coaxed me into trying things, respecting my resistance to some things and encouraged me to ‘just see what it looks like on!’ “Clothes are like art, the designers have spent a long time training in their field, working on textures, colours and cuts” said Ann.  It certainly felt like that as I began to try different pieces on, it was as if they were meant to be a part of me; they sat nicely on my shoulders, swept round by back and dropped across my torso.  I felt comfortable, more comfortable in clothes than I had ever before, like they had been tailored for me, the way they moved as I did….. I looked in the mirror and I smiled back at me! I had business attire that made a statement, made me confident, actually was me!  The following morning I had to prepare for an important meeting. I couldn’t wait to wear some of the pieces that I now have in my wardrobe! I put them on and immediately felt at ease, confident and most importantly I felt like me!

We have the next stage of the styling chapter in a few weeks time, where the Olivia May’s stylist from their Oxford boutique will spend the day with me to explore more collections, styles and designers.  The thought of this now fills me with joy and excitement, far removed from the original trepidation!

Is it YOUR time for change?  YOUR time to take a health & wellbeing journey that can keep offering you more?  YOUR time to be the best version of you?

The next available programme begins on the 4th May (requiring sign up by 28th April 2020).  The monthly online food, fitness & wellbeing programme supports you make changes to your lifestyle that are sustainable and achievable.  Real food and no calorie counting supported by Emma’s daily motivational & educational vlogs, a workout of the day, recipes and much more!

Get in touch; | [email protected] | 07971 596529

Time for Change

I can

Time for change?  You may think, perhaps not in the middle of the Christmas madness? When consuming a warm mince pie or 2, swigging a glass of mulled wine and generally socialising more is much higher on the priority list. January is often a great restart marker.  Forme, I want to lay the foundations for Christmas (for those party legs!) so Clean and Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness is very much cemented in my lifestyle.  The first 3 weeks of December are definitely brimming with lots of lovely protein, good fats and tasty vegetables (and maybe the odd glass of fizz!)

In December 2018 I wrote my first newsletter blog describing how 3 months into Emma’s nutrition programme I had shifted from ‘overweight, energy-less and stressed’ to ‘full of energy….brimming with goodness and enthusiasm for everything…’ The months following this I have oozed many more positive adjectives through the blogs and conversation.  It has been a life changing experience!  As I write for December 2019’s newsletter, I have a warm glow (one that I often get when putting on my trainers & lycra in a morning nowadays!!!).  I can achieve whatever I want to achieve, that at 45, married with 2 young children, anything is still possible!  That despite hints of the peri-menopause coming along (stuttering occasionally like Frank Spencer, hot sweats in the night and placing the most unlikely items in the fridge) I am able to take on the world, to balance a business, a family and the life laundry!   In fact in the last 15 months I have discovered that I CAN learn to wakeboard, I CAN learn to ski, I CAN whizz along a zip wire, I CAN attend exercise classes, I CAN climb Snowdon, I CAN trek the Sahara Desert, I CAN wear the clothes I’ve always admired on others, I CAN inspire, I CAN allow time for me, I CAN love like I’ve never loved before, I CAN be kind to myself, I CAN appear in a photograph, I CAN eat fabulous food and I CAN feel fantastic!  And you can too!

In January 2020 Clean and Lean will rebrand as My Time for Change by Emma Wilson Fitness, an exciting move to acknowledge all aspects of Emma’s online programme; food, fitness and wellbeing.  It was My Time For Change in September 2018 and I embraced Emma’s monthly programme to change the way I felt, to give myself the best chances at life by feeling the healthiest and fittest I have ever felt.  My time for change was prompted by the discomfort I felt, the lack of confidence and the acknowledgement of missing out.  This was more than a FOMO, this was a fear of being highlighted as too overweight to do an activity or too unfit to be able to complete it!

Lifestyle and habit changes coached by Emma to help you make choices that encourage you to use food to take control of your life alongside movement. It’s real food, no gimmicks and workouts to do in your own home without the need for a gym!   It’s so sustainable because there isn’t any calorie counting, no food groups are banned, no measuring of portions and is totally family friendly.

Is it YOUR Time to Change with My Time for Change?  It is never too late nor too early!!  Emma is ready to help you to become the best version of yourself!

The Hollies Farm Shops in collaboration with Emma Wilson Fitness have created homemade ready meals that embrace the principles behind Clean & Lean / My Time for Change – great protein source, good fats and plant based carbohydrates.  There are Clean & Lean / My Time for Change dishes on our menus that follow the same principles, using the fabulous ingredients from our Farm Shops and more of our homemade produce is highlighted for their great ingredients.  All of which can be enjoyed as part of Emma’s online food & fitness programme.

December’s programme has already begun.  The next My Time for Change programme begins on 6th January 2020, sign up with Emma by 20th December 2019.

For more details please get in touch with Emma;

07971 596529

[email protected]

Time for Change

The excitable adventurer

At 45 it’s great to discover that you can do anything if you put your mind to it; you can unlock a world of possibilities!  I’m glad I’ve discovered this now when I have the potential of many more years of discovery!  When the opportunity to raise money for St Luke’s Cheshire Hospice, by trekking the Sahara Desert, arose something was ignited inside of me!  Just over a year ago, 4 of us from The Hollies signed up to what has turned out to be the adventure of a lifetime!

Our little tribe had just spent 5 days together in the Sahara Desert. An out of this world experience that has drawn many beautiful souls together. We had spent 12 months preparing for the 50km trek for St Luke’s Cheshire Hospice. We had raised over £10,500, joined gyms, paced through exercise classes, climbed Snowdon and lost nearly 6 stone (in my case) in preparation for our expedition.  During those 12 months we had done many more things together, through fundraising, testing our walking pace as a group and supporting each other with kit lists and the mental strength.

Nothing prepared me for the overwhelming love and laughter of the trek. 12 people became a family; we even had a trek dad and 2 Nanas! The back-stories that brought that family together made the trek so much more meaningful for us all.  Lifelong friends have been made, souls have collided and the most amazing experiences have been logged in the memory banks!

It’s amazing how humans adapt from the luxuries of the norm to the realities of the wild! From comfy beds to mats & sleeping bags under the stars; from porcelain toilets & running water to wild toileting with a poo buddy (a role created just for the Sahara trek!) All testing at first, but after your first wild ablution, you do feel like you are empowered to conquer the world!!!

Focused on the 50km over 3 days in the blistering heat, trekking across mixed terrains of sand dunes, rocky flatlands and climbing parts of the Lower Atlas Mountains meant that everything else was unexpected, magical and uplifting!

Sharing moments of someone else’s grief sat on the side of a mountain is soul lifting.  Pushing each other on when the heat was so intense & the blisters were stinging is heart warming. Seeing the sunrise and sunset in the desert opens up the whole world and it’s possibilities to you, in awe of the beauty of it all.  There are the beautiful moments where the Hokey Cokey unites 2 cultures as we danced with the Berbers under the moonlight.  What a gorgeous population they are too, so generous and caring. They ensured we ate like lords, were as comfortable as possible in our camps at night and had so much fun; camel rides, sand dune rolling, traditional music, candlelit meals, sleeping under the light of the full moon & a sky full of stars and so much more!

When you haven’t showered for 4 days you & your fellow trekkers are taken back to basics. I had the worst bed head all day every day, we were all aware that wearing the same clothes that we were sweating in each day was going to test our huddling abilities!!  Somehow we still overcame all of that and hugging each other was still, if not more, appropriate than ever!

We have all left this experience with extra large hearts, fewer inhibitions and lifelong friends. As I reflect on the last 12 months that got me to this point I am again so grateful to Emma of Emma Wilson Fitness who has supported my weight loss and fitness transformation.  I was able to spend more time in the moments appreciating its awesomeness because I was so mentally and physically prepared for the trekking part and the hammam experience that followed!!

Anything is possible! Things become more possible if you embrace Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness as it enables you to take some control of your body & mind through what you eat and how you move!

So what’s next? Well Clean & Lean is the lifestyle change that makes the challenge attainable, the mindfulness to pursue your heart’s desire, to love like you’ve never loved before and gather souls who make changes in this world.  St Luke’s has already given so much to me (without needing to use their services) that I know I’ll be doing more for them in the future. Oh and there is an excitable adventurer in me now that has the desire to do more!

Find out more about Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness

[email protected]

07971 596529

Please note Clean and Lean has been re-branded as My Time for Change.

Time for Change

Undoing what I had become

Written by Mindy Cowap in September 2019, who has enjoyed the Clean & Lean nutrition programme for 13 months.

This is a journey of not becoming someone else but undoing what I had become, understanding who I was supposed to be and working out how to get there with my beautiful children, an awesome husband and fabulous friends.  An awakening of the joys of life, love and even more laughter!

“Why are you boobs like jelly mummy?” said my 7 year old daughter as she witnessed the magnitude of their unveiling for the first time on holiday in 30 years! Boobs that had once been filled with youthfulness and then by ‘fatfulness’ were now on show, without inhibition! A time for celebration of those jelly boobs not for remorse at their emptiness! Hoorah it had only taken me 30 years to feel comfortable enough to go topless!!!???

“Tummy? oh can we call you tummy now or should we call you thinny?” said 7 year old Ella the other day, (who is obviously very good at unfiltered honesty). So despite my physique not being classically thin (just yet, or ever!) to my children the transition in the last 12 months has made them question my nickname.  Exciting, humbling times and fuzzy feelings of joy!  I think ‘tummy’ and ‘tumtum’ (that they both affectionately call me) are here to stay and to be honest it gives me a warm feeling for the unconditional love given despite my size and my own self deprivation because I was that size.

The children are sharing this voyage of discovery, of trying out new experiences and they love it. “Mummy go down the slide” shouts my 9 year old son as I try to untangle my legs and nerves, teetering at the top of the ladder on the pedalo slide! There was no way I’d have done that this time last year, but somehow unpeeling my fat suit has released a human being who is prepared to give anything a go despite her age and sensibilities! So off I went zooming down, with a sense of liberation and fear!   We’ve now wake-boarded together, jumped from the highest points on an aqua park, climbed a mountain, ran/walked 365 steep steps multiple times and completed workouts together in the last few months. The children are thriving and relishing the challenges for themselves or the challenges they are setting for mummy!

When Ewan said to me, whilst climbing those 365 steps in 30-degree heat, “mummy I want to be as strong and as fit as you are” my heart melted, I could not have wished for a bigger or better endorsement. My own son had found something aspirational in me!  It was hard to recognise what that could have been before as I drowned in weight anxiety.  Both of them ask more questions about food choices, checking that something is healthy and acknowledging the unhealthy consumption! Positive steps toward their own journeys into adolescence and beyond!  They know that Clean & Lean is ingrained in our lifestyle, home life and important to our business.

Every holiday for the last 10 years I have lugged around my camera and all its accessories on each trip, thrived on capturing all of their moments, spent hours editing the photos and then putting books together. This year I didn’t take my camera out once! I was too busy living the experiences instead of observing them! Not sure what’ll be in this year’s photo book but I know we’ve got awesome mental memories!

This journey of discovery, of experience and happiness has been unearthed by taking on board the best lifestyle change ever. I embraced Clean and Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness on 5th September 2018, I began Emma’s fitness classes by December 2018. I haven’t looked back; I am forever evolving physically, mentally and emotionally. It is so exciting, liberating and fabulous. Being a middle aged, peri-menopausal woman in control of her nutrition, health and fitness is the best thing EVER!  Don’t get me wrong I am human, I do have emotional days, but taking time to understand how to fuel properly to help manage hormones, stress and health has given 99% joy!

Find out more about Emma Wilson’s Clean & Lean nutrition programme by getting in touch with Emma.

[email protected]

07971 596529

Please note Clean and Lean has been re-branded as My Time for Change.

Time for Change

1 year on

12 months of Clean & Lean has changed my life! Emma Wilson is a guiding light for us all; her knowledge, passion and care for wanting to help people shines through in her Clean & Lean nutrition programme.

I have gone from being morbidly obese; over eating & no exercise to embracing the clean & lean way of eating and at least 5 exercise classes a week, often as many as 8!

I have reduced my weight and inches dramatically in the last 12 months, enjoying wearing clothes that I only ever admired on others and embracing the continuous compliments I receive about the weight loss, my skin looking so good, my eyes being so bright, the outfit I’m wearing, my toned physique and the list goes on!

I have become so self aware that I have started to look at the outside of myself and take notice; my hair, nails and many other things have suddenly become important because I am no longer hiding myself.  I am in tune with my monthly cycle, hormones and can pretty much pinpoint why I am feeling the way I do on that day. Honestly, food really does have this much impact on you and your hormones! It’s amazing! Oh and I haven’t mentioned how amazing everything now tastes! (I didn’t realise that lettuce has a taste to it!)

Self-awareness also makes you look on the inside and this is really important. You need to understand why you over ate, hid yourself and generally didn’t look after yourself. I always had a smile, I was always the life & soul of the party, I am very happily married and have 2 amazing children, but there had to be something else.

Clean & Lean has tuned my body and my health so it is now time to explore my mind. I know who makes me happy, who makes me very happy and who I want to spend time with. In this fine tuned body I have so much love that I often refer to the fact that my heart could burst! God help those on the receiving end of this, lol, i don’t want to be suffocating, I just love!  Those that I surround myself with seem to accept this, are often amused by it but allow me to be this way!

The toughest part of that self-awareness is having to delve, to make sense of why I had morphed into that seemingly happy, fun, laid-back-morbidly-obese individual.  12 months into Clean & Lean it is now time to do this. I feel fantastic, am surrounded by people I adore and cannot describe the warm glow I get every morning when I don my trainers and Lycra!  However to move forward and embrace more health & happiness I need to process & fine tune some of those brain cells!

Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness is one of the best things that have ever happened to me. A lifestyle change that is sustainable for life, that gives you that fighting chance of living that life at the peak of health & happiness. How can anyone not want a piece of that? Give Clean & Lean at least 3 months, put your heart and soul into it, you’ll soon be changing habits and wanting more because you can feel all the benefits as your body & mind reap the rewards!

12 months is not the end of the journey for me, I feel it is only just the beginning. I believe in Emma so much I’d love to work alongside her. I believe in Clean & Lean so much that my path remains on the programme.

You are what you eat, give your body chance to move, surround yourself with beautiful people and enjoy life to the full. There is only one chance at life and I’d say I’ve found the magic formula!

If you’d love to find out more, then get in touch with Emma. | 07971 596529 | [email protected]

Please note Clean & Lean has been re-branded as My Time for Change.

Time for Change

The transformation junky

Written May 2019

I may have become a transformation junky! The demons of allowing myself to be 6 stone heavier have been counterbalanced by my newfound addiction to change!  For without that obesity & loss of control how would I be able to enjoy this fabulous journey so much?  I would sing out “This is me” alongside Keala Seattle implying pride in my size and who I was 8 months ago, whilst inside I was crippled with apology for who I was.

“This is me” 8 months later is celebrating difference, but this time I mean it. I am discovering “who I am meant to be” and loving embracing all that has to offer. New friendships, new experiences, exercise, shopping, new confidence, oodles of love to be given & received and some control over what at times felt uncontrollable!  Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness really is a voyage of discovery! I have tried things that I have never even considered before because suddenly I care and can!

So imagine a transformation that thrusts your head above the parapet.   Surrounded by warmth projected onto you by beautiful souls, souls you didn’t even know existed until they stepped out to offer kindness & support. Strangers and acquaintances prepared to speak words of encouragement & affection based on what they have seen or read.  You really get to understand friendship too, recognising the beauty of people who are proud, loving and supportive. I am so lucky.

Food is a passion. I am obviously surrounded by it, work with it and absolutely love eating it! I am discovering even more flavours and tastes, gaining confidence to cook delicious meals whilst staying in control of what your body needs. I never thought this possible; more often I’d eat subconsciously, unaware of taste or texture particularly, definitely oblivious to what my body actually needed!  Now I find myself sharing photos with friends of tasty looking vegetables (yes I still have some friends left!!!), getting excited about recipes to try and being able to listen to whether I am even hungry. (In fact when you are so in tune, hunger is actually infrequent).

Then there is the exercise!  I didn’t exercise; I didn’t like it and claimed I never had time for it! Occasionally I played squash (if unfit, you actually don’t have to move that much!) and I tried the couch to 5k a couple of years ago, which I did but then injured myself because I was so overweight.  Now addicted to transformation, I find myself wanting to exercise on a daily basis, I love how it makes me feel, how my body is changing shape because of it and that mentally I know I am giving myself a fighting chance at seeing middle age through and beyond!  I attend many of Emma Wilson’s fitness classes each week, I push myself as far as I can go, which is each week further than the week before!  In between these classes I run at every opportunity, Forrest Gump-like!  Whether it is racing the children to the next tree, jogging to the shop from the office or skipping to the car!

I look around and there are people trapped inside their ‘fat suits’ (a suit I had worn for most of my life). I so want to tell them about Clean & Lean and help them break free and embrace all the possibilities that are so real when you’re not trapped inside your body.  I know you have to be ready though, if someone had said that to me when I wasn’t ready, I would have been devastated!  Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness unlocks potential to change. This may not be a fat loss journey for everyone, Emma’s programme makes you so nutritionally aware that emotion, hormone and stress management can all be achievable.

Do you want to try out a transformation? It could be a small transformation to your health? Is it time for change? Even a small change? Then Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness may be your next choice.   Emma runs her online Clean & Lean programmes monthly, they are friendly, supportive and filled with likeminded people. Get in touch if it’s your time for change – [email protected]

The Hollies Farm Shop is delighted to have collaborated with Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness since January 2019.   Look out for lots of great produce highlighted in the farm shops with Clean & Lean stickers.  Local suppliers such as Devonshire Bakery (sourdough breads and pizza balls), Nonna Theresa (Italian sauces), Clotton Hall Dairy (clotted cream), Poplars (farm fresh eggs) and Conwy Valley (Welsh beef) to name only a few.

Our Coffee Shops, 59 and 32 all have Clean & Lean meals on the menu for everyone to enjoy.  You can choose Clean & Lean for breakfast, lunch and dinner, there is even a Clean & Lean cake to try!

Watch this space for more exciting Clean & Lean developments coming to The Hollies Farm Shop soon!

Please note that Clean and Lean has been re-branded as My Time for Change.

Time for Change

Not a bikini body

Written in March 2019

6 months ago I was sat on a sun lounger in Sardinia, feeling unhealthy, unfit and massively overweight.  I was self conscious in my swimsuit, as Italian beauties passed in their bikinis. In fact I was not enjoying wearing any of my holiday clothes. I felt at the lowest point I had ever been. I was with the family I loved, enjoying our time together marred by self consciousness.  I had by this time spent the day with Lisa (referenced in blog Time for Change – The Magic Pill?) who had talked at length about what Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness could offer me. So I began mentally preparing, I had made slight shifts in food & drink from the little knowledge I had gained from that brief overview. Although this turned out to be far removed from what I actually should have been doing.  I should have been enjoying food, ignoring the refined sugars, choosing meals not filled with pasta, incorporating good fats into my meals and enjoying every tasty morsel of Italian cuisine!

Today I sit here on a sun lounger in Dubai, feeling so different about myself. I haven’t reached the end of my journey yet, but I am a good way along it. I am not bursting out of my swimming costume, trying to hide myself in a t shirt.  Instead this body is liberated, skin ready for a bit of sun-kissing and I feel fabulous. Yes there are wings on my arms, yes there is baggy skin at the top of my thighs and there’s still a tummy (and a lot more!), but this body has 5 stone less on it and it feels great!

The holiday outfits I have bought are about trying to enhance my shape and not about hiding it.  I walked tall (well as tall as I can at 5 foot 3) last night when we went out for dinner. I’m so excited about what the future has to offer, so many more opportunities now that I feel like ‘I can”.

My priority before arriving at the hotel was whether there is a gym! Within 24 hours of our arrival I had sussed out the gym and booked my first class.  So this morning I took part in a core workout. This would have been so far removed from my mindset and my comfort zone previously that I have no idea if any other resort we have ever stayed at even has a gym. So I donned my Lycra (yes leggings, trainers and super greens are now part of my Clean & Lean travel essentials!) and walked confidently into that class. Emma has given me that confidence, her classes and 10 minute workout videos help you to understand technique and being able to exercise at your level whilst still pushing your boundaries.  I held my own at that class, not as toned as others, probably not as fit as the others, but I wasn’t out of place! I worked at my level, half planks instead of full planks, resting when my core wobbled so much that I couldn’t push any more. All that was ok though, I was there!  Tomorrow is a TRX class.

Then there’s my tastebuds! Welcome back to them! Having masked taste with bland carbs for so long, it is like they’re on fire now! The choices I am making reflect the transition to great food through Clean & Lean.  The food available here is so fresh, exactly what my tastebuds are hunting out at mealtime. I’ve just enjoyed a vegan Buddha bowl poolside and it was divine. I could literally taste the fresh ginger and every tasty crunch of the vegetables.  12 months ago my choice would have been a club sandwich & fries! I don’t feel like I’m missing out now, I feel like I’ve been missing out for years! All these fabulous tastes that I was unaware of before!

Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness has totally changed my life, the experiences available to me and the health I enjoy. I want a fighting chance at life, that has so much to offer and is enriched by other fabulous human beings, so Clean and Lean will always be my first choice.

I emailed Emma sat on that sun lounger 6 months ago and it was the best thing I ever did. I was honest about my state and Emma was reassuring and somehow got it and how I was feeling immediately.  I am sat on this sun lounger 6 months later knowing I made the right choice!

Is it your time to feel great and make the right choice?

Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson – The healthy choice.  –

Emma has new online programmes running all the time and if you’re ready for change, I highly recommend that you get in touch.

[email protected]

Please note Clean & Lean is now re-branded as My Time for Change.

Time for Change

Is this is all the love there is, that’s fine by me

If this is all the love there is, then that’s fine by me.  5 months into my life changing journey and my heart is pounding with love.  No, don’t leave me at this point for fear I am about to give Barbara Cartland a run for her money!  The last 5 months have given me opportunities to explore my emotions, my memories and my mind.  Opportunities unique to a refresh and restart button, an internal switch that has accepted the time for change, embraced Clean & Lean and thereby led to clarity.

Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness encourages you to make tweaks to your time management, to fit in meal planning for the week, to squeeze in the exercise that you claimed you never had time for and as importantly, gives you at least 10 minutes of everyday to explore your thoughts and emotions. Good mood food is what Emma will refer to in her daily vlogs as she challenges you to reflect on your attitudes / mind-sets and see the positivity.  It’s the good mood food of the Clean & Lean nutrition programme and Emma’s coaching that sets your heart aglow.

“Life on earth – it’s hard but there’s only one chance at it.” Snow Patrol 2018.  It’s a song of loneliness and loss of direction.  A song that perhaps most of us can relate to, but we must grasp ourselves in the fall, recognise that we only have one chance at this and need to grab it by the balls, taking control of what can be controlled.  Surround yourself with those that inspire you, give off your vibe and you’ll attract the right tribe!  Stood at a Snow Patrol concert surrounded by some of the most fabulous women I know, warmth filled me.  Confirming how lucky I am to be alive, to walk the walk, to love and be loved. Wearing your heart on your sleeve does make you vulnerable. You have to catch your breath sometimes and trust that they have your back as much as you have theirs.

We all have our demons, our reasons for getting lost in the wilderness.  The Clean & Lean programme helps you to take time to explore them.  This is not necessarily an easy process, but a necessary one to allow you to move forward.  I’ve acknowledged the rejection of my father, which triggered a period of grieving and the loss of a soul within my mum who now suffers dementia.  I hadn’t realised that I’d eaten my way through these periods; I’d just looked for my happy places and always managed to find them.

When the past occasionally comes to haunt you, it is the power of belief in yourself that helps you to brave the challenge and ride the wave.  The Clean & Lean programme empowers you, arms you with the tools to cope and surrounds you with a group of like-minded people who are all there because they all have their own complications to work their way through.

I want to share the overwhelming goodness and help to make everyone feel as happy, positive and in control as they can be, by being nutritionally aware and positively supported through the Clean & Lean programme.

And you know what, when my friend said to me “If this is all the love there is, then that’s fine by me”, then I know we are lucky to be alive, to be loved and be a part of something so special.

Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness is an online health & fitness course that really does change your life.  Offer it commitment and it really does reap its rewards! Anything is possible; you can become the best version of yourself.

If you want to look into becoming the best version of yourself, then Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness could the right choice for you.

Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson – The healthy choice.  –

Emma has new online programmes running all the time and if you’re ready for change, I highly recommend that you get in touch.

[email protected]

Please note that Clean & Lean has been rebranded as My Time for Change.

Time for Change

Best breast forward

Mindy has now been following Clean & Lean for 8 months.  Mindy wrote this blog in January 2019, 5 months into her life changing journey.

Carrying a sack of potatoes around is no mean feat! Exercising with that sack of potatoes strapped to you, could you imagine that?  Doing anything with that sack of potatoes is cumbersome!

So when I’ve shed the equivalent of 33 bags of chips, is it any wonder that I feel amazing?  My heart must be beating with an extra bit of gusto, my lungs with some extra puff and how must all the joints feel? Relieved?

I walk with my head held high, best foot forward and a beaming smile, for I feel wonderful. There is a twist to this, occasionally I am tormented by where I have come from and the fact that I boast about losing 4 stone, yet have more to lose. I am still fat, but at least not morbidly obese where I came from! It does niggle though; is it really an achievement to be reversing out where I had got so large that I was risking my life, shortening my life or encouraging disease?  I am lapping up the compliments, of which I am very grateful, but for every positive comment, it does flash through my mind, what may they have thought before.

Allowing myself to be so large, I never had an opportunity to love my body; a flat stomach or toned arms really frustrates me. Why could I not love myself then, like I do now? Now I allow myself a glimpse in the mirror, 5 months ago, I was so disgusted I refused to look, hiding myself in baggy black clothes.  If I’d allowed me to love me, maybe I would have taken control sooner, appreciated what I had and therefore wanted to improve what I had, not ignore it and make it worse.

I stood looking, really looking in the mirror yesterday as I had a bra fitting in M&S; a liberating experience in itself. I had never had a fitting before and boy can I tell the difference today in what a bra should be doing! I stood in that cubicle surrounded by mirrors, forced to look at myself, to acknowledge my shape and really work out what bra would be best for me. (Why would I have a clue?) I’ve never had to think about that before, shopping only to find something that actually fits.  Now I can choose something because I like it; what a revelation!

What size am I? I don’t know! I buy the odd bits and usually buy something else that hangs off me, as I can’t quite believe I am not an 18+ anymore. I don’t know where to start with style or shops. I’ve only ever bought from where I can get into something and then it was more about what fits than what suits!

But back to the bra fitting for now, as I said I was liberated. I stood there and felt like I’d joined a new club, a club I’d been excluded from before. I could be measured for a bra, I can wear Lycra in public and I can say yes to the invite to go on a zip wire experience without fear of not fitting in the jump suit or pulling the zip wire down! Head high, shoulders back, best breast forward!

So I strutted out of that cubicle, wearing my new bra, with boobs supported and positioned, holding a sports bra (an item that wouldn’t have been available to me before, nor would I have had the inclination to wear!). I am enjoying this new club.

If you want to join that club, learn to appreciate yourself or improve your health, then I highly recommend Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson Fitness.

Clean & Lean by Emma Wilson – The healthy choice.  –

Emma has new online programmes running all the time and if you’re ready for change, I highly recommend that you get in touch.

A no nonsense, simple approach to eating means you can enjoy real food, consume good healthy fats which are vital for good brain function, bone health and physical wellbeing and learn which foods to choose for YOUR life, giving you the best chance to THRIVE.

Removing all the confusion about what’s healthy and what’s not, giving you:

  • More energy, no slumps, balanced blood sugars.
  • Less bloat, improved IBS symptoms, better sleep and less cravings.
  • Ability to shed body fat!

No need to get to a class or group, its all there online in a private group. You receive full support from Emma Wilson recipes, weekly guidelines and home workout videos. Fresh outlook, fresh food, fresh start for your health and wellbeing.

Look out for the stickers & shelf edgers around both Farm Shops.  Customers have the opportunity to choose a healthy option should they wish, whilst shopping for their other treats. Clean & Lean clients can identify the products to support their lifestyle choices.

The Clean & Lean Burgers, breakfast choices, salads and cake are all now available across the Coffee Shops and Restaurants at both The Hollies Little Budworth, Lower Stretton, 59 and 32.  They are proving to be popular choices for customers; enabling families to all dine together with their individual choices being met.

Please note Clean & Lean is now rebranded as My Time for Change.

Blog written January 2019